OK, so my 33 year old little sister just asked me a fully loaded question. I started to tell her what I really thought, but then decided that's not what she wanted to hear... just wanted me to understand and commiserate with her. I was a good big sister and did what she wanted.
The thing is its so frustrating sometimes. She is currently on a mission to find her Mr. Perfect. The problem is he does not exist. NO MAN can live up to her idea of a perfect mate. She has this picture in her head of what a perfect husband will look like. He will be smart, funny, passionate about art and life in general. He will have a bigger than life personality that will make her feel both important and special to be married to. She's not looking for a perfect mate, she's looking for some one to save her from her current life.... and therein lies the problem.
Even if she could find this ideal man, there's no way he alone can make her happy. SHE's the only one who can do that. He will bring joy and can even help her to find happiness... but she's the one who has to do it.
There is no Mr. Perfect out there... only a Mr. Just Right for ME... and most of the time, he's not the guy you were expecting him to be.
Maybe, if the time is right and my little sis is in the right mood, I might actually have the courage to tell her that!
Another round of colds
Oh my goodness this has been one heck of a winter. Everyone told us that the first year that my son was in day care was going to be a killer with the germ invasion. I expected him to be sick, but not my husband and me. I'm one of those people that usually has at most one cold a winter... I think I'm going on cold 4 or 5... who knows they all just keep blending together.
My poor husband has had a nasty head cold for the last 2 weeks. He even went to the Dr without me having to nag him into it. Now its my turn I guess. Nothing like a completely stuffed up head, sore throat, and runny nose to make this already crazy week even more lovely!
The good news is that my depression cycle seems to be backing off a bit this week. Of course the busier I am the less time I have to think about things.... which helps. Plus I get to have a massage today, so I've had something to look forward to... and yes I am going even with my cold!
My poor husband has had a nasty head cold for the last 2 weeks. He even went to the Dr without me having to nag him into it. Now its my turn I guess. Nothing like a completely stuffed up head, sore throat, and runny nose to make this already crazy week even more lovely!
The good news is that my depression cycle seems to be backing off a bit this week. Of course the busier I am the less time I have to think about things.... which helps. Plus I get to have a massage today, so I've had something to look forward to... and yes I am going even with my cold!
Time to get real....
I am a horrible blogger. Seriously, i have these great ideas and goals, but nothing ever comes out of them. I never seem to be able to put this poor, neglected blog at the beginning of my "to-do list". Not that I have even been organized enough lately to make a to do list...
In any case, one of the problems I think that I have been having is that I am not really being me on this thing. I'm trying to present some made-up ideal of who I want everyone to think I am.... who I want to be, rather than just being honest and accepting the me I am.
I am in some desperate need of some serious inspiration in my life. I've been depressed and run down for the last few months. There is a little voice in my head that keeps telling me I already have everything that I need to be happy... and I am desperately trying to ignore her. If I already have everything I need then my depression is on me.... and I'll have to do something about it. Seems much easier and a way lot less work to try to live in ignorance.
But that's not who I am either. I'm a problem solver. I thrive on finding solutions when no one else can. Not to mention the fact that my husband and son deserve so much more than a wife and partner who is not even trying any more. Heck, I deserve so much more.
So here it is, the new me.... maybe being more honest here will be a jumping off point for the rest of the parts of my life!
ps - spell check found no misspellings the first time through.... maybe things are a' changing! haha
In any case, one of the problems I think that I have been having is that I am not really being me on this thing. I'm trying to present some made-up ideal of who I want everyone to think I am.... who I want to be, rather than just being honest and accepting the me I am.
I am in some desperate need of some serious inspiration in my life. I've been depressed and run down for the last few months. There is a little voice in my head that keeps telling me I already have everything that I need to be happy... and I am desperately trying to ignore her. If I already have everything I need then my depression is on me.... and I'll have to do something about it. Seems much easier and a way lot less work to try to live in ignorance.
But that's not who I am either. I'm a problem solver. I thrive on finding solutions when no one else can. Not to mention the fact that my husband and son deserve so much more than a wife and partner who is not even trying any more. Heck, I deserve so much more.
So here it is, the new me.... maybe being more honest here will be a jumping off point for the rest of the parts of my life!
ps - spell check found no misspellings the first time through.... maybe things are a' changing! haha
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